Finding my full experience

It's not about the pain, or the sex, or the feel of my hair entwined in someone's hand. It's about what that does to me. What it provokes in me and provides for me. Physically. Mentally. Emotionally. Then how I deal with that, process it. Last time around, I had to deal with it alone, I put my own pieces back together. I figured out my own puzzle, my own strengths, weaknesses. Now I want to know how far I can go. This time...I want to grow.